I think I am dying

Is anyone else dying from allergies out there?  It has been about a month now.  Symptoms include:

1. Keeping the house boarded up.  No windows or doors are allowed to open.  Ever. 
2. Sneezing 20 times in a minute.  It's my new workout.
3. Inability to do anything.  At any time. 
4. My contacts have been laid to rest.  Glasses are en vogue!
5. Wet compresses on my face at night.  Look out baby, I am one hot momma!!

I am ready for this season to be over!!!

Faux Pa

Have you ever done something so embarrassing that you couldn't stop laughing at yourself?

I did on Monday.

I was standing right next to a student while talking to a teacher.  I felt a rumble in my tummy and tried to have some control but failed.  I let out a faint "pop, pop, pop!!"  I hoped the student didn't hear but sure enough I saw her grab the girl sitting next to her and start whispering.  I then saw the other girl say, "What!?!?" and then the whispering continued and both girls started laughing.  I finished the conversation quickly, walked nonchalantly out the room then ran to my office where I bust out laughing and call Dan.

Well, what can I say?   I farted in a student's face!!  Really, I think it is every educators dream come true.

I totally do NOT cry at movies. Not that I have anything against people who do...I just don't.

But, I have to be honest. There are a few movies that I know I am going to cry before it even starts.

This is one of those: "Why?" You might ask. Is it the desperate need I have to fix Lane and Kelly's relationship? The fact that it is based on a true story (these are usually the movies you'll find me sniffing in)?

Or is it because he is pierced by a humongo bull horn?

NO. It is because I can't ride.

Seriously, wouldn't I make a great cow girl???

CowGirl Up.

(BTW, I did watch this two nights ago and sobbed my little heart out. Dan blames yesterday's terrible tantrum on the movie. He has mandated that I choose between forever swearing off silly cowboy movies that I cry at or being happy all the rest of our days. The choice is easy, don't you think?)

Like Child, Like Mother

In the words of Grayson, "Today I am having a bad attitude."

Yes, I am.

I am embarrassed to say but I actually had a temper tantrum in the middle of the grocery store today. I did the shopping and went to the pharmacy (Dan was working) to see what time it was. Dan informs me it is 11:03. That means I have 15 minutes to get to Grayson's school to pick him and his two little buddies up!!! School is exactly 15 minutes away. I still hadn't purchased the groceries yet. So, what did I do? I yelled a nice little cuss word that I shan't share here and stormed away. Dan asked something about coming back to pay for the food but I was so beligerent I really don't know what was said. I shouted back that if I came back all the food would be spoiled and left.

Yup.

I returned 1/2 hour later and apologized to the great pharmacy staff who probably now believe I am possessed and the worst wife in the world. Which, today, just might be the case!! Good thing this only happens once a month!!!

Wow!

Has it seriously almost been a month since I've posted? I suppose it has! And today I should focus my energy on Aiden since he is ONE today! (Sigh. Tear.)
I want to do a quick update, however.

Okay, maybe it won't be quick.

On Tuesday night I went to see Julie & Julia with a bunch of bloggin' buddies. On the surface it was a cute show that I thoroughly enjoyed. There was more to it, however, than that. I related to the movie on a deeper level. It was a reflection of things I have been feeling and experiencing over the past year in my life. I found it interesting that there were so many parallels of my life to the movie. First, the movie takes place over 365 days. My little journey has been about a year as well. Julie turned 30 in the movie, as did I last week. And on both these birthday anniversaries, we (Julie and I) felt satisfied with our journeys. Third, blogging was a part of it all.

I found myself wondering at the existence of my life about a year ago. I was a new stay-at-home mother who just gave birth to my last child. I realized that with Aiden's birth went a part of life that I had always anticipated: pregnancy. But with that went infancy as well. I noticed time was moving too quickly and I was not jumping quickly enough.

I had to do something.

It was about this time I decided to take blogging more seriously. I am glad I did. It has been such an sensory experience. I am more alive now as I look for things in life to write about. I notice the scent of the flowers as I walk by them at night. I appreciate the rain on my face and attempt to find words to describe it. I revel in the feelings when my children and I play.

I never find myself writing these things in my blog, however. But I do them. And I am becoming a better person for noticing the world around me.

My relationship with Dan, though always wonderful, has even improved. I love him so much and am finding myself more open to showing him that. I try new parenting techniques I read about on other blogs and have seen success. I am slowly becoming the mother I would like to be, the mother I KNOW I can be.

But there were times that I wasn't so "enlightened." It took awhile for me to put blogging into perspective. Though many do not know this, I plan to begin a new blog soon. I would worry so much about how I could make this blog better. If I couldn't get readership here, how could I get it elsewhere? There were a few posts I did that I thought were funny and learned the hard way that they were not funny to all. I had my own private "meltdowns" as Julie did in the movie.

All in all...I have learned that I love to blog for the fun of it. So what if neither of my blogs go anywhere? I do it for the love of it. I do it because it has reawakened my vocabulary, my love of writing, my love of life.

So, taking a month off has been a product of this journey. I have had a wonderful month filled with birthday parties (5 of them!), play groups, first days at school, a growing business, and many more exciting things. The best part was that I thought of you all during these times! I might not have posted, but you were with me!

Thank you for accompanying me in my self-aware walk through blogosphere!

Love to all,
Amber

What do you do?

Being a SAHM has its advantages.

I can take a nap. That right there is enough to sell me!

I actually get ironing done twice a month. (That might not sound like much but it beats the NEVER when I was working!!)

I am my own boss. Unless you throw the kids in the picture. Then they are the boss.

I get to daydream just about all day long. And, move over Stephanie Meyer, I have some AWESOME stories to tell! Now, if only I could write.....

The Review

I felt HOT today

P.J. Day for Froggie
What happens when you leave the rail down:
(the baby doesn't nap)

I bought these:

First time crawler:Karate Kid Sequel

DINNER!!!

I popped this:

Nestling In

Watched this (Wall E)

For those who don't watch the flick.

Movie time is a fave!

Flashback Wed.

Dan and I were watching a commercial two nights ago that featured some ugly kids. Dan remarked how ugly the kiddos were. Now, I am very aware of the fact that I was an ugly kid. I am okay with this as I believe I grew out it! I (as a joke.....) replied, I am a great example of an ugly kid turning out okay. Feeling a hubby need to make me feel better about myself (a need that wasn't really there, by the way. Remember, I am okay with this.) he responds, "You weren't an ugly kid, just a poor looking kid." Ahhh. Isn't he sweet?

Here is a picture of my favorite outfit at the time. It was so funky that one of my guy friends from that time (Josh Kirby for those of you who were in this time frame) remembered it after we had graduated from college!!!!!! There was a cute little faux leather black mini skirt that went with it. The eighties were bad to me! :)

Flashback Wednesday!

Yickaroos! Look out people, here comes 1990!!!

Here I am with my first cousin once removed (I think that is right!), Janessa. And yes, Janessa is a blogging buddy. Happy flashbacking!